Starter pistol thought

Do you have thoughts that repeatedly sabotage you? Those thoughts that whisper and whip through your mind so fast you can’t see them, twisting your behaviour so you betray yourself and end up right back where you started despite all your efforts to do better? Today I uncovered one such thought; a barbed, little devil-thorn…

Day 81: I’m not wallowing, I’m juicing

A friend of mine once advised me to wallow in negative feelings rather than fight them. I tried it many times – I just didn’t realise I had misinterpreted his advice. When difficult emotions overtook me, I made no effort to do anything to feel better. I let my thoughts bodyslam me and didn’t even…

Day 63: Sugar withdrawal feels awful!

Now I remember why I’ve never succeeded at quitting sugar. Withdrawal feels just like depression. In fact, according to healthline.com depression and anxiety are two possible symptoms of sugar withdrawal, along with changes in sleep patterns, cognitive issues and cravings. Yup. Check. Check. And check. My brain feels like it’s offline. I wake up exhausted and stay…

Day 62: Facing the fears behind the beliefs

I cut alcohol and sugar as an act of self-love and self-respect and to learn more about the demons and gremlins I’ve spent my life running away from. The demon that’s with me today is anxiety – the anxiety I experience when I no longer feel the compulsive need to push myself and ACHIEVE things. This…

Day 60: The power of a compelling reason

Woo hoo! 60 days alcohol free. Now to do the last 40 without alcohol or sugar. Day 1 without both. I literally don’t know how many times I have tried to cut sugar out of my life. I was 11 the first time and 41 the last time. Neither can I tell you how many…