Starter pistol thought

Do you have thoughts that repeatedly sabotage you? Those thoughts that whisper and whip through your mind so fast you can’t see them, twisting your behaviour so you betray yourself and end up right back where you started despite all your efforts to do better? Today I uncovered one such thought; a barbed, little devil-thorn…

Day 71: An unexpected trigger

I cooked a delicious meal tonight. My son’s nursery produced a cookbook full of the recipes they use for the kids’ meals and I tried my hand at the “Beef and Bean Crumble”. It was full of wholesome ingredients but tasted like comfort food and I ate two portions. Way too much food for me….

Day 60: The power of a compelling reason

Woo hoo! 60 days alcohol free. Now to do the last 40 without alcohol or sugar. Day 1 without both. I literally don’t know how many times I have tried to cut sugar out of my life. I was 11 the first time and 41 the last time. Neither can I tell you how many…

Day 31: Acceptance

Photo by Marion Michele on Unsplash At around the age of 18, I developed Bulimia. At first it felt like a gift. It removed all food pressures and made it possible for me to socialise and have fun. I felt liberated. Over the years though, it made me lose touch with what was normal. If…