Day 13: Staying on Track

Habits. Almost everything we do is habitual. Researchers estimate about 90% of our thoughts (and many of the accompanying behaviours) each day are the same as they were the day before. Maximum efficiency, minimal exertion for the brain. But what happens when our habits are serving us poorly? I spent 25 years stuck in patterns…

The Next Test – From numbing to feeling it all

When the only tool you have is a hammer, you tend to see every problem as a nail. Abraham Maslow Numbing strategies like food and alcohol enter our lives long before any deep and deliberate education about how to feel our feelings without losing our grip on happiness, reality, ourselves or our most important relationships….

Day 71: An unexpected trigger

I cooked a delicious meal tonight. My son’s nursery produced a cookbook full of the recipes they use for the kids’ meals and I tried my hand at the “Beef and Bean Crumble”. It was full of wholesome ingredients but tasted like comfort food and I ate two portions. Way too much food for me….

Day 60: The power of a compelling reason

Woo hoo! 60 days alcohol free. Now to do the last 40 without alcohol or sugar. Day 1 without both. I literally don’t know how many times I have tried to cut sugar out of my life. I was 11 the first time and 41 the last time. Neither can I tell you how many…

Day 31: Acceptance

Photo by Marion Michele on Unsplash At around the age of 18, I developed Bulimia. At first it felt like a gift. It removed all food pressures and made it possible for me to socialise and have fun. I felt liberated. Over the years though, it made me lose touch with what was normal. If…