How good is it possible to feel?

This question has been on my mind for a while.

Honestly, I feel as though I’ve done everything to feel ‘better’.

I’m up at 5.30am. I exercise, I meditate, I write in a journal, I make fresh vegetable juices every day, I eat mountains of salad at lunch time, I spend time doing work I love, I eat mountains of veg at dinner time, I don’t drink alcohol except on very rare occasions and I’m in bed by about 10.30pm every night to ensure I get a good amount of sleep.

The crappy thing?

I still wake up feeling quite tired and at any point during the day, I’m tired enough to feel like I want to lie down. I don’t, of course, but my energy is low enough that I think about it.

Recently, I started a podcast series asking the question, “How good is it possible to feel?” and I’ve been speaking to experts about their answers to that question. But, to be honest, until yesterday, I hadn’t uncovered anything to help me understand how it’s possible to live such a ‘healthy’ lifestyle and still feel tired and drained a lot of the time.

The answer was in my hair

A friend recommended getting a hair tissue test from, which I did and my results arrived via email yesterday.

According to the analysis, my metabolism is slow, my calcium is through the roof and I’m eating a lot of the ‘wrong things’ – or at least the wrong things for my body.

My results show that the minerals in my body are contributing to low thyroid function which leads to fatigue, mood swings and depression. Tick. Tick. And Tick. Yet, according to blood tests I had via my GP last month, low thyroid was ruled out. This is something I’m going to have to look into further but since my symptoms fit the hair analysis diagnosis, I’m going with that as the correct one for now.

I intend to record a video review of the mineral check in the coming weeks but for now I’d say it’s blown my mind. My report details lists of foods I need to eat and foods I need to avoid and there are loads foods on the lists that have surprised me.

As of today, I’m saying goodbye to avocados, broccoli, cauliflower, coconut oil and many other healthy foods I’ve relied upon heavily. In their place, I’ve reintroduced foods I previously removed because I thought they were ‘bad’. Steak is back and so are raisins, bananas and dates. One change I’m happy about…Kale is gone! I hated it but I ate it almost daily.

Naturally, all processed carbohydrates are out and so is alcohol and dairy. This is harder for me than I care to admit – and this is the main reason I’m back writing this blog.

3-month experiment

The results of my hair analysis surprised me in ways I’m still processing. They showed me that you can do so many of the right things and still feel ‘wrong’ or ‘off’ because you might not be doing the right things for you.

Over the next 3 months, I intend to learn more about what it means to listen to my body, learn about the right measures for health and wellness and share my insights, struggles and results. If nothing else, writing is cathartic for me and offers some of the emotional comfort I used to get from food.

Though, if this experience is anything like learning to live without alcohol, many of these blogs will be about learning to ride the emotional waves as they once again rise higher.

Photo by Khashayar Kouchpeydeh on Unsplash

3 Comments Add yours

  1. This is really interesting I’ve not heard of the hair test. I’ve also not been much good at doing anything long enough to see if it really makes me feel “better” …. although I think I feel good enough… it is natural to be moody or tired sometimes no matter how much you’re doing everything “right”!

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    1. Big Happy Life says:

      I completely agree! Sorry for the delay replying. For some reason your comment only showed on my feed today despite you posting it on 6 Jul. Even after all this time, I’m fairly sure I don’t *get* WordPress! 😂
      I think you’re absolutely right about it being normal to be tired and moody sometimes. The further I go down this road, the more I see that the object of the exercise isn’t to perfect every experience. It’s to learn presence and acceptance, whatever the experience.


    2. Big Happy Life says:

      Thanks for commenting. You’ve inspired a thought for my next blog! 😊


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