James read my blogs recently. He’s concerned I’m making myself sound “like an alcy”. He wondered whether this sort of oversharing is the right way to go, considering all that I hope Big Happy Life will become in future.
I think it is. What I’m realising from the blogs I follow and the books and articles I read is that the breakthroughs happen in the mess. When things are smooth sailing, there are unlikely to be huge epiphanies. It’s when we push ourselves to do new things, test our strength and break our patterns that we find new information and since I want to be in the business of helping people do that, it felt dishonest to leave this particular stone unturned.
Am I an alcoholic? No, but I’m super curious about the ‘mess’ I’ll kick up by walking away from it for 100 days. I’m curious about how my identity will shift, whether or not my mind and body will start to communicate better with each other, what will happen to my moods and energy and…will my hair get shinier?
In addition to that, I simply needed to show myself I could do it. Not just that I could do it but that I could do it easily by using the rest of my habits to create flow and make this feel more manageable and more fun. I’m basically testing the ideas, ideals and advice offered in Big Happy Life on myself. So if I don’t make it to the 100 day mark, I’d argue that I have more than one big problem on my hands. Of course if I succeed and it continues to be this easy…well…that’s exciting.