If you’re a zen and blissed out meditation enthusiast, my revelations today won’t surprise you. If you’re deciding whether or not to make meditation a part of your life, my experience so far may help you make the decision.
These are my observations so far.
I’m more patient.
This is particularly true in my relationship with my kids. We’re talking more and laughing more and I think it has something to do with me being less easily riled.
It takes more to freak me out.
Today, we were late for an appointment (only by 1 minute but I HATE being late). Normally, I’d go on and on about how we managed to run late and what we’d need to change next time. Today, I simply said, “We might be a minute or two late. I’m sure it won’t make too much difference.”
I’m less frantic and frenetic.
I’ve got a lot going on in my business at the moment. As a result, I’m constantly running around like a headless chicken. I give some tasks too much attention and other tasks no attention and my mind and home were becoming increasingly more cluttered. Yesterday I noticed the first signs of shift in this pattern which has meant…
I feel more in control
Instead of filling every possible minute with some goal-related task, I am using a technique called Paired Tasks. I’m very new to doing things this way but I’ve already cleared 3 of the 11 things on my list from yesterday’s blog, alongside all the business tasks I set myself for today (I’m feeling like a bit of a rock star!)
I slept well last night
I normally wake up around 1am and it takes me 2 – 3 hours to get back to sleep. Last night, I woke just after 1 and went back to sleep just a few minutes later. For someone with my sleep patterns, that’s a miracle!
What hasn’t changed?
I still suck at meditation!
I rarely manage to stay focuses for more than a few seconds. My brain whirs and plans and analyses constantly and I have to keep trying to focus – sometimes to the point of giving myself a bit of a headache. Though I’ve heard that some people experience headaches when doing Kirtan Kriya meditation so maybe it’s the type of meditation as opposed to my forced attempts at focus. Again, I guess time will tell.
What does it all mean?
At this point, it could mean nothing at all. I’ve felt and behaved this way before. The difference is I normally have 1-2 days like this and then turn into the love-child of an ogre and stressed Eric. If meditation truly has a hand in these benefits, I should get a longer run of great days with more balance and greater positivity. God! I hope so!
Watch this space!